Long Time Coming

I think it's time for me to return to this blog.

I don't know why I was gone so long. My computer broke in March, but I've had it back since June. I can't use that as an excuse because, every time I press my favorites button, I see the link to this blog... but I pretend I don't.

I guess I wasn't ready to come back.

Now I am.

I had a hard night last night, a night blurred with tears that flowed from a place deep down inside of me that I had forgotten about. It was painful and tiring, bringing up things that I don't ever want to think about because I hate feeling sorry for myself. I have been blessed with so much in my life, and there is no reason for me to be so sad.

Except, there are.

These are details that I'm not ready to share. Many of you know about my niece, and some of you do not. Few of you know about my childhood, but most do not.

I'm not ready to share any of this today.

I just need to bring myself back into the habit of writing in this space. Someday I will be ready to share, and to cry as I type, and to just open myself up to complete and total strangers.

But today is not that day.

I thank all of you who just took the time to read this, even though it's probably confusing and empty to you right now. I promise, someday you will know.